when "when" is bad

April 29, 2008 | 2 Comments

In 56.98 hours, I will walk out of my final lecture of graduate school. But who’s counting?

Between papers and another writing project I am in the midst of, I haven’t been able to blog as much. But that just feels like a small taste of what the last three years have been like. I’ve anticipated being ‘done’ so that I could move on to reading the books I’ve wanted to read, and doing some writing I’ve had ideas about.

“When I’m done with school…” is a phrase that has kicked off countless conversations with myself.

But now I have 56.80 hours left. That handy phrase is facing its demise. Suddenly, I’m feeling the pressure to do those things I’ve always thought I wanted to do. Or at least, that I’ve always told myself I wanted to do.

The truth is, I do. But when the reasons I can’t are removed, it’s a little more daunting. No, it’s a lot more daunting.

Sometimes, when is a dirty word. It’s a handy technique we can use to get ourselves off the hook. But this kind of when is a way to shut down your soul.

There’s no time like the present. Or at least there won’t be in 56.55 hours.

  • ben harms

    ever read The War of Art, by Steven Pressfield? It’s a good kick in the pants for those days when the daunting-ness of ‘i can’t’ no longer exists and it’s time to jump in with both feet. if you haven’t…you must read. it’s a quick and dirty one. in my top 3 of all time.

  • John

    Thanks. I haven’t read it, but you’re not the first to recommend it. It’s been on my list of things to read after I graduate. 🙂